Another heart break!

I was thinking that I've finally found the right person for me to share my love,my happiness, my sad moments and all off me. But, I'm an epic failure when it comes to love and passion. I still struggle to find the one until I take the decision to just to stop looking for it especially with traveller.He told me that I need not to wait for him, the day he left Kuala Lumpur.It's hard for him to go..but it's hard for me to let go.What have I done wrong?I don't deserve to be love, to have someone besides me, to protect me from harm, to be with me when I need him the most?I feel my life is so pathetic.Epic failure.
And now I turn my love to my passion for travelling. I feel that I need to connect myself with me and find what I want in my life.I feel like I just want to disspear from here, go where the wind bring me and never had plans....